.open your eyes.

Blood. Tell me which part of my face that I've not bleed out?

Nose bleed? Checked!
Vomited out blood? Checked!
Pimple pop with blood? Checked!
Lips to dry and bleed? Checked!
Tears of blood? Checked!

TEARS OF BLOOD???!!! Okay, here's the details.

Early this month, Jan 2011..or maybe it was end of Dec 2010, i realised there was like a little growth on my left eyelid. Not really sure what it was so I just decided to wait till i get back home for mid-sem break to show it to my mom since it also didn't hurt, so nothing to worry lah kan.

Got home, went to the doctor and found out that it had to be removed something like a minor op. It was known as something called 'Chalazion' or its correct definition is a lump of the lid that is caused by obstruction of an oil gland within the upper or lower eyelid. This lump may increase in size over days to weeks and may occasionally become red, warm, or painful.

Lucky for me it wasn't painful yet. So, I decided to get it remove straight away. And there I was the pirate for a day that day. Everything was fine, nothing hurt and looks normal after that. So last Saturday I went back to KMK with a peaceful heart. But suddenly on Sunday..at 1.15pm in the toilet at KMK I cried out BLOOD! Like OMG (oh menakutkan gila), i mean my left eye was literally pouring out teary blood. Panic! I quickly just rinse it with water hoping it would stop, and it did! Fiuh. And there was also no pain. A little relief there.

However, at 6.10 pm..the same thing happen again! Panic attack! My roommates got panic too. and being a big baby I am, I cried. I don't know bout u people but tearing out blood seriously got me freaking out, luckily the crying didn't cause it to happen again. So, cut story short I went home that night. Before I sleep that night I bleed again, went to the doctor next morning and bleed infront of the doctor again, and the night after seeing the doctor i also bleed again, just because I was laughing out loud(see how sensitive it can be?). Total times of bleeding :5

First reason of why my left eye bleed which was told by the doctor is that I may have the tendency of bleeding which in ratio of 1:100 people, I'm the weird/special one.

Second reason was maybe the cut was done a little too deep that being the sensitive/fragile person I am..it could just easily cause the cut open since our eyelids are in fact really thin and soft, and the eye is obviously a very sensitive area of the face.

Third reason was maybe that my healing power was just weak, and that the cut haven't dried off perfectly yet and that it took a longer time than expected. In this case, platelets saya mungkin berjalan dan tidak berlari. HAHA!

Due to that, I am now at home for..let see,hmm.. 5 days . Sleeping, resting, doing everything with the most gentle motion you could ever imagine ..and all the boring stuffs you know. Also had to give up some things that I absolutely wanted to do this week in KMK. *sigh

It's okay I guess because the important thing is to have good health because without it nothing can be done. Bak kata siapa saya tak igt, tp dia kata.."Byk duit pun buat apa kalau badan kita tak sihat, apa pon tak boleh buat"

Well, hopefully the cut is now dried off because it haven't bleed for days now..And i absolutely need to get back to KMK tomorrow and continue where I left off..Oh, kerja belambak gila, kuliah sudah banyak miss, just pray I don't get lost. Need to settle with the HEP and make sure my lecturers get my MC..pass up my assignments, blah blah blah..

Need your prayers that hopefully my eye wont bleed again and that I'll be okay away from home, and of course have the peace i need to study.

Right, got to go.

Note: To avoid this 'chalazion', just get your eyes cleanse every night before you sleep with EYE MO! Oh, and if you're interested to see how the chalazion minor op is being done, feel free to search it on youtube, agak menggelikan yeah, jangan kata saya tak warn!